Sunday, November 21, 2010

Aftertaste Of Harry Potter

Hogwarts Hogwarts Hoggy Warty Hogwarts
Teach us something please
Whether we be old and bald or young with scabby knees
Our heads could do with filling with some interesting stuff
For now they're bare and full of air
Dead flies and bits of fluff
So teach us things worth knowing
Bring back what we've forgot
Just do your best we'll do the rest and learn until our brains all rot

Actually I have written about this article 2 weeks ago but I haven't published...well because I have watched Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow today so I have to edit all of this article which is the title was "Excited About Harry Potter" lol
I watched HPDH with Indo Harry Potter ( The community for Harry Potter fans in Indonesia)...I always watch with them, every time Harry Potter movies are played in cinema. In Indonesia Harry Potter fans also love to cosplay and pretend to be like one of Harry Potter's character. Before the movie was played they had some games or today they had 7 potters game and it was so funny!!

Well after all the games and trivia had been done, the movie was played and everybody was getting excited :)) and my heart was beating so hard wkwkwkwkwkw....overall the movie is really cool! I can feel all the emotional from every character...and when Dobby was killed by Bellatrix I cried!! gosh....
The unforgettable moment for me is when 7 Potters' scene. Harry wore the BRA!!! lmao!! I can't stop laughing! even now when I'm writing about this....I remember that scene...*take a bow for Dan!* he's really professional!

After so much fun today I went home, but I feel something pain and sad.....and I know what it's because I know the fact that Harry Potter series will over soon and it will be next year on July. I still can't believe it...I really scare..I live 10 years and grown up with Harry Potter's world... I live in JK.Rowling's writing and her story means a lot for me..honestly Harry Potter and JK.Rowling influence me so bad, because of her I decided to be a writer :) even I haven't published any books except one poems for Michael Jackson's book and I'm working in magazine as journalist, but I prefer to be called as writer hahahahahaha okay soon I will be the real one! *cross the fingers*

Like or not it will be happened...HP will be ended and hope I won't cry like a baby...*even I'm sure I will!* well...thanks for your writing Jo :) and I miss your writing so badly and I will miss Harry Potter things start next year...


Sunday, November 7, 2010

RIP Our Dear Friend

Actually I wanna write about how excited I am about the last Harry Potter movie...but I just got a message my friend just passed away this morning....I don't really know too much  or close with him. I just knew him.  We were in different class, but in some subjects  we had to join the class together. I remember he was a tall and quite big guy with sense of humor.
It's so sad when you can see his words on facebook, sms or can hear his voice on absolutely gone....but just keep the beautiful memories about him and we will always remember him as good as he was. :)
Who ever he was, he's still a part of my life, our life......I'm sure he even didn't know my name..anyway...good bye dear in peace...I pray for your soul and may God forgives and keep you.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Dare to Be Different

I don't even know...if I have sense of art or not, because when I enrolled for design major in a university they rejected me :). Maybe I was not good enough..... but I just can't lie to myself if I love design and arts. For me writing is a part of art, I love to make and create something. One thing made me happy when someday my boss said to me " you're eccentric!" hahahahah well, maybe not all of you like to be called like that, but for me it's really cool because people see and feel me with extraordinary thoughts!! lol *when you read this..maybe you'll say "oh're so freak!"* But like what Kurt Cobain said " I'd rather for who I am than loved for who I am not."

I realized why grown ups mostly forget what they dreams and passed their life with regrets, when you're working for something not really you.... actually you have been training to accept the ordinary life. yeah..the reason is always same in many centuries, money. But why we can't give our self a chance to be different.... ;P I'm still trying and  I always remind myself to not be like "nous= them!" hihihihi
I hope I can be more creative and not easy to give is really hard but still have a beautiful rainbow. I really need to be strong and tough but still have an honest heart :)) and more than anything still humble XD

Halloween Surprised

As Indonesian we really seldom to celebrate Halloween as a big event, especially when I was a child. Well... because I always excited about festival or events, I tried to make a little surprise for my friend in the office. So the idea is about little spooky with humor sense, and finally I made little coffins for them and the Dead's fingers, it was so much fun!! especially when I put them on their table....I really enjoyed watch every reactions on their face lol. Actually I wanted to make more snacks like blood candies and jelly eyes balls....but I didn't have much time to make them.....well enjoy the photos and TRICK OR TREAT----------------> sorry fellas it's too late.
Single Coffin ala MOI! ^^
Inside the coffin is mummy doll, dead's finger cookies, spooky candies.*who wants to buy just let me know*
 yeah! the delicious Dead's Finger XD everybody love them!!

Now it's time for me to think what I will do for Christmas......maybe I will try to make water globe with my picture inside hahahahaha!! I just really love do something with my fingers...that's why I love typing a lot lmao!!!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Say IT!

Well...write for our job and for pleasure has a big gap! I just realized when I work for magazine...both of them are really fun :) but when write for our job we got so much pressure. I miss the moment when I write poems or novels....where I can share and reflection about life, nature and human being.

But since I'm working as journalist I found a new and exciting thing...Photography :) it's really fun and when I got a good photo or moment which is I captured, I feel so happy.

Honestly I'm on dilemma situation....I have a lot of ideas and I don't know how to express them... I just feel I'm not satisfied with this condition, I want more.....okay let say it's an ambition XD lol

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Treasure From Grand's House

I always love oldies things like vintage radio,money, clothes, or camera, books and letters with foxing in everywhere. I love them because they have their own memory, how they were made from the creator and author. A few weeks ago I went to my grand's house with one big pleasure, I could find something unpredictable and YES! I found old radio and camera  from 1950's. And I will search the vintage clock from my grand's house later. 

This is my treasure radio :) but I've not taken the camera one...maybe later XD

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I've been Tagged.. Get to know Each Other..

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  • Paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your title as "Getting to Know Each Other!"
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1. What time did you get up this morning?
- 5:00 AM

2. How do you like your steak?
- Medium Rare..

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
- Kick Ass

4. What is your favorite TV show?

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
-Europe..England or Ireland maybe XD

6. What did you have for breakfast?
- Today was noodle 

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
- Japanese, Mexican, Italy and Indonesian 

8. What foods do you dislike?
- hmmm almost nothing as long they are not bitter lol

9. Favorite place to eat?
- Asia *if I have money* lol

10. Favorite dressing?
- Balsamic or my own dressing -----> Honey Dijon 

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? 

-Don't have a car for a moment

12. What are your favorite clothes?
- Jeans, Shirt, and Jacket plus Hat *actually*

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? . . .

- I have some: Japan, Europe, New York and LA plus Orlando *special for universal studio* wkwkwkwkw

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? 

- half empty

15. Where would you want to retire? 

- Hill with my family and my children 

16. Favorite time of day? 

- around 9 PM---> sit on my bed, watch dvd 

17. Where were you born? 

- Jakarta

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? 
- Soccer

19. Who do you think will not tag you back? 

-Dunno XD

20. Person you expect to tag you back first? 
- ....

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? 

- .....

22. Bird watcher? 

- nope

23. Are you a morning person or a night person? 
-absolutely Night person...I always on bad mood in the morning

24. Do you have any pets? 

-nope but I want have a dog like Hachiko lol

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? 
-yup! I will watch Broadway *Jakarta version* hehehehe

26. What did you want to be when you were little? 
-  Artist, Dancer and Writer

27. What is your best childhood memory? 
-I had a secret admire lol

28. Are you a cat or dog person? 
- dog

29. Are you married? 

- not yet

30. Always wear your seat belt? 
- yes, if I sit in the front because I scare police will catch me lol

31. Been in a car accident? 
- Hopefully NEVER

32. Any pet peeves? 


33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? 

-Mushroom, paprika and onion

34. Favorite Flower? 

- Rose

35. Favorite ice cream? 
- Vanilla, rum and raisin and Matcha

36. Favorite fast food restaurant? 

- All hahahahaha * hope Jamie Oliver won't see my blog*

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? 

38. From whom did you get your last email? 

- from office wkwkwkwkw

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? 
-don't have

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? 

-I guess so....

41. Like your job? 

- I LOVE my job :D

42. Broccoli? 
- No problemo

43. What was your favorite vacation? 


44. Last person you went out to dinner with? 

- one

45. What are you listening to right now? 
- nothing

46. What is your favorite color? 
- Black, brown

47. How many tattoos do you have? 

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? 
-3 maybe

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
- 20.49

50. Coffee drinker? 
-quite :)

I'm tagginggg...

I've got from phiez thank you dear :D

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The Dream Job Road

It's such really long time I didn't write my blog and honestly I feel so guilty...but so many things happened in a few months, I had write about I applied a vacancy to fill food editorial position in my local magazine before. Actually I felt so hopeless about that because they had a long process and recruitment but I just did my best and the rest is in God's hand. I applied this job since last year, and I followed their process since January with around 6 tests, I know work in magazine is quite difficult especially if I was not from journalism major, but I really love writing and work in magazine is one of my dreams job. For me it's such a cool job :), the tests were not something new for me actually because I did it as my translated articles (I have to thanks my lecture because after I graduate he asked me to help him, translate some chapters from his book *Marketing Books* for his PhD program), made a menu, interviewed, wrote articles,food styling, interviewed again,etc. But I was nervous but tried to be calm as I can XD...I just thought if this job for me and suitable for me I will get it, but if not let it go. So after the psychology test I had to wait almost 2 months and I thought "all right they didn't call me so maybe I didn't get this job". So finally they called me and asked me to interview..but after that I still have to wait a couple days and they called me again and I GOT THIS JOB!!!! oh my God...I really can't believe it!! I will work in one of famous local magazine!

I love to write and I love food and eat lol, I love cook at home, make some new recipes and styling them...I think it's part of arts :) I really enjoy doing I guess it would be great and lovely job. Actually I don't want to say it's a job but I prefer profession because I work for my passion and I will always learn and for this time I will learn from the best one :D 

well, it's really weird because for many years I dreamed about this...sometimes I acted like I was a writer in magazine, even in fact I was just a high school student, but now it becomes a reality....yeah we must dare to dream even everybody maybe say your dreams are impossible, but you know impossible is just a word and people made it...but beyond your ability and your imagination there's nothing impossible :)I really thanks to God, my family and my friends to support me....but it's not the's just beginning. Although it's my dream job but not always be perfect and happy, they would have tons of problems and unhappy moments. But I just try to make everything in positive ways and try my best because it's my choice. it's my dream.
pray for me and wish me luck for the first day next week :)

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Favorite things= inspiration + your corner Part 1

We love and like so many things, from small to big, from usual to weird >.< but everything we love is about ourself . Favorite things are your inspiration to life, and these all things are you wanna do or achieve deep inside your heart. I don't know what all of you feel about favorite things but for me it's just like unidentified emotions...because they mixed everything, like happiness, sadness, anger, rebel, etc. But they make me move and  make my soul wake up and realize about my life and optimism about future...but at the same time I wanna shout out to the world " Hey I'm here! and I wanna do something big and special at least for myself." I will write down some of my favorite things and maybe you feel the same like I do.

1. Music
I'm not a musician, I don't understand about notes and I can't play instrument, but music talk about language and it's universal. Since I was child, I'm addicted with music. Music can change my mood and my mind so easily...and Music make my imagination fly away, and make some picture about the emotion what I feel about the music. Music also help me to write poem and find some unique words. I can be act like crazy when I listen music hahahahaha. Maybe some people will make a gap about music, like "oh I just love pop, or Jazz." "Rock is my life and the others just rubbish.", etc. But for me they are just a name...that's why every time people ask me about my favorite music, I really confuse how to answer the question >.< because I love all...I love music from the classic like Rachminoff no 2 Op 18 until Rock from The Journey or Rolling Stone or Kiss. Because they speak about this life with many emotions, and try to make people and this world hear and understand their soul and heart. I just can't imagine live without melody of heart.....

2. Books
I'm a bookworm :) yes books are my best friend . I can go to everywhere in this world and in not this world, I can go to every places, I can meet many characters and more than than I can find what's my dream. I spend a lot of my own money to buy books, I'm OK if I don't have any new clothes for Christmas or New Year as long I will get a new book. I remember when I was in elementary I just had limited money, the books and comics were so expensive even nowadays, the price of 1 book or comic, it meant my money for whole week,  so sometimes I had to keep my money for lunch to buy a book, and I was starving all day and a few days hahahahaha...because my parents mostly say NO if I wanna bought a book or comic...they didn't have enough money to buy their children books and my Dad...he doesn't like to read books, he just loves read newspaper, but my mom sometimes secretly bought me some books  :)
because it was difficult for me to buy books and other things and I had to work hard to get what I want, that's make me become someone who respect and take care too much my things and books. I can cry if my books broken, ripped,etc. I will feel broken heart hahahahahaha that's why I hate if see people throw their books and last week I saw a woman step on books!!! OMG!! I really wanna kick her! and scream at her " Please be respect with the books! they're crying idiot!." and my favorite book all the time is Harry Potter :) I have so many memories about Harry Potter in my life.

3. Movies
all my entire family is movie maniac XD we really love watch movie...and honestly it gives me many inspiration   about life and writing. I love musical movie, fantasy, true story, comedy, drama, history, action and even horror but I really hate the thriller with full of blood *yukzz* I can cry and can't stop laughing because of movies...I always see and learn about how the movie has made...and when I was in high school, I asked my parents to learn about cinematography after I graduated and the answer was NO. T___T sometimes I think my parents always say No rather than Yes....>.< and they just want their child like other child being "normal" and I said to my parents...sorry Dad and Mom you guys have a freak child hahahahahaha. My favorite movies are Harry Potter for sure because I love the books but I love others movie too like Newsies, The Secret Garden, etc. I love MOVIES!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Award and Polling

All right April has come with some foolishness *April fools* lol, so it's mean my 2 polls have been closed I really thank you for everybody who has voted in my blog mostly they voted for excellent and very good :)) thank you so much for that, but I know this blog not good enough :) but I try to make it better :).
And for my TV series pool Glee be the winner :) , one voted for Gossip Girl and the other one for How I Meet Your Mother. I really can't wait for Glee volume 2 :D. Anyway I will make 2 polls for this month of for Book and the other one special for Glee. Hope you wanna voted them XD
Thanks to my friend Angie for the award I will put it later and I'm so glad you have come back!! yeay! lol

Have Been Fooled?

Today is April fools, I just remembered this day a few minutes ago ;P. Anyone of you have been fooled, today?  I don't know, I have been or not but I just found my deviant arts profile picture has been changed, I don't know it's a part of April fools or it has been hacked  *hope is the 1st one*  I saw some of deviant's profile picture has been changed too...and when I wanted to change my profile picture, it was disabled....oh God...hope it was about hacked things! *wish the best* and a coincidence one of my follower on twitter they said, one of their forum has been hacked too *sigh* But anyway I have fooled some of my friend to change my status on facebook *hah!* be in relationship lol and now I feel so bad and I think I will gonna tell them the truth...soon. lol

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

7 eleven, Glee and English Lesson

Last Saturday me and my friend Jen met our classmate when we were still in campus. She brought her new friend from Netherlands. When we knew it we were quite nervous because we scared with our English lol. For writing we still ok but speaking a big OH UH! it's not our habit to speak English in daily life. So we met them in Japanese Ramen restaurant and he was so kind :) we tried to speak briefly with him and lucky he got it ;P..felt so relief lol. So from that restaurant we went to 7 eleven, Me and Jen haven't gone to 7 eleven in Jakarta *they just opened it 2 months ago* and I wanted to buy slushee *I always remember Glee every time I see this drink* ;P I had tried this beverage before when I was child and never drink it anymore and as I know 7/11 has it, so we went there and unpredictable it was quite crowded, maybe because it was a weekend :) and finally I bought the SUPER BIG GULP!!blueberry flavor lol was really fun! and they sell many hot food like spaghetti, burger, sandwich, hot dog, bento. etc. I keep the Super Big Gulp cup until now and it was for Glee photo contest lol yeah hope I will win!! I love Glee so much, really nice series.
after 7/11 we went to Pisa cafe and we listened live music, talked with our new friend and it was really fun, he told us what his opinion about our country, and some story about his country, and he liked Michael Jackson too!! :D awesome! :))
actually it was a simple and casual weekend. But for me it was really fun and got some new experiences :D

note: this photo was taken by Jen lol

Thursday, March 18, 2010

I love to Give Award

Yeay! Finally I will give some awards to my follower :) please take it guys :)

Thank you so much for helping me always, your comments and I love your blog
I love to read your blog dear :) really fresh! and thanks for comments
Thanks for always read my posts and give them comments :)) I really appreciate it

I love your posts they are so lovely and thanks for the comments dear

Please take them guys :)) my first given award to you. Hug and Kisses

Extraordinary Trip

Actually this trip was last year, in one week holiday. Mostly people in my country will go to other cities or going board and if not, they usually go to shopping center, but honestly I sick go to shopping center or malls they are really boring. I really envy with people who’s live in Europe, US and East Asia, they have many parks or places they can hang out, not only MALLS. I always want to feel it, so finally I decided my family trip went to grave yard. It was not because we have any family members in there, but I just wanted to see the statues or cemeteries and more than that I wanted to get extraordinary holiday :P sounds crazy, wasn’t it? So lucky for us we have grave yard with Gothic style, it was Netherlands grave yard. I was really excited about our extraordinary holiday trip, so when we arrived one word for this grave yard “awesome!” but the maintenance is very poor, quite dirty. I saw some of the cemetery stones with great statues like angel statues, priest, Holy Mary. And most of them are Netherlands and Chinese, I found a little cemetery house and my dad said they were be rich because they can had this special little house for their family members cemetery, and I saw the coffin’s carriage, wow! It’s so big and cool but spooky. So I went around and around, the grave yard quite big for me but my dad said, actually it were more bigger than now, but some of the lands already become streets and house. Honestly if the government gives more attention about heritage they will protect and care this treasure, I mean it can be like tourist attraction at least for local people. Well, it was not about ghost or freak thing, but how we appreciate something has been forgotten, not just by their family but also by us. So I posted some photos :D

The Little House

Anyone can read Dutch? :)

Coffin's carriage

Just click the pics if you want zoom in :)

When Life and Death like A String

Today is a shocking of my brother friend died, she suicide jumped from her apartment. I don't really know her but we have met before, she was quite close to my brother. She has twin sister actually, she was smart always get scholarship, she was also hardworking, she was pretty, she was very kind and always go to church, full spirit. That's why this accident very unbelievable. She didn't broken heart, she didn't have problem with her her family too, but they said she depressed. I don't know the truth why she kill herself, I really don't have any idea. I know lately so many people kill them self by jumped from the shopping center or apartment it's like a trend...horrible trend honestly! and it's not funny. Some people guess about brain wash like in Japan, I have watched some Japanese movie about brain wash but I just think that only in movie, but because so many suicide tragedies here, I start to think maybe it's right,maybe.....

I have seen some facebook user who's dead include my brother's friend, I feel so sad and scare...before they died..they still can play the social network like facebook, update their status and in a few days their friend comment in their wall said goodbye forever and sad it still can see their photo profile and smiled....but they had gone...most of them still young in 20's ages but the death had come to them. Not only because suicide but some of them had an accident like car accident, etc. But every time I see's so horrible... no permission, no warning...the death just come. Life and Death just like a string, very thin and fragile. My pray for her. RIP Cher.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Drawing MJ Edition

I love drawing or painting :), but I never drawn the real people before Michael is the first one :D I fell like got a miracle when I draw him. So I still learn and hope you like my drawing and please give any comments and which one do you like? :D

Little Michael

Michael and His Fedora

Michael Bubble Gum

Michael With Children In Africa

Michael with Little Girl IN Neverland

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

I Am Not

I am not me
Lost my soul
Lost my mind
But I keep my heart
I can not hear
I can not see
I can not speak
But I can FEEL

I am not beautiful
I am not smart
I am not talented
I am not rich
But I am not BLIND

About the TRUTH

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Books around me

Yes! I am a bookworm and I really proud of this lol :) so I will move to my new house maybe on April so a few weeks ago I try to arrange my books, and I have to accept a fact, my books separate in 4 places, my main bookshelf doesn't fix anymore. Maybe my collection not like you which is can be more than 2000 :) for novel I just have around 300 and yeah comics it's around 800 mostly--> (me and my brother collection). The exiting thing about my new house is I will have my own library yeay!!! I have been dreamed in on it for a long time... :) but the problem is I don't think we have money to but new bookshelf...actually I don't want put them on plastic shelf or boxes, I prefer wood I will try to figure it out how to buy or make new bookshelf...

I love physically rounded by books, they make me feel comfortable and like in another world. Beside my bed, always has books because I can't sleep before read a book or comic. :D I think I'm so lucky because my mom introduce me books when I was a child, she always bought me children books. Thanks mom for that habit :)

Every time I go to malls I have to visit a bookstore, check any new books or just window shopping in bookstore :) the sad thing is when I find a good book and I can't buy them because I don't have I have to wait until I got the money...

so I took some picture of my bookshelf and boxes lol

as you can see one of the shelf already broken XD

Monday, February 22, 2010

I Admire You

We have people or someone who's be admired and give us inspiration, either for our life's education, or maybe for professional life. They are part of us even they don't know anything about us, don't know our name and who we are, but we feel like they are our family, our friends. Mostly they give you encouragement to be a better person and to catch your dreams, with their achievement, creations, statements and their own life. I have some who has give me motivation and effect me in many ways :D

1. JK. Rowling
Yes! the phenomenon author of Harry Potter series :) I know her books since I was 14 years old so it's mean has been 11 years :D, I heard her name and her books from news on TV and at that time her books hadn't be released in my country. 1 year after I watched that news I got a newsletter from one of famous publishing in here about Harry Potter book and I was so happy! called my best friend, told her about this book and she was so confuse what I was talking about. lol. So finally the books had been released and I become Potterholic hahahaha, until now for sure. Honestly the first time I saw her name I thought she was a man * sorry Jo*.

Her books have helped me in many ways especially for my senior high school life. I didn't like my first year in my senior, I hate my lessons, felt so lonely and abandon, School like a horrible thing ever! every time I went to school, I felt like go to hell, but Harry Potter has helped me to make school be better. I started to imagine my school like Hogwarts and I was in Gryffindor, the teachers whose I didn't like I set my mind they are Snape, Lockhart, voldemort, etc. And you know what,it was work :) I felt better and can pass my senior high school with joy :) I never forgotten about this. Somehow she has encouraged me to write and write :) because of her I decide to be a writer someday.

2. Michael Jackson
I have written about him before, but still not enough :). He gives me more than just motivation about the passion of work but also for life and spiritual, and I think not all artist can do the same thing like him. He has influenced me in many ways about music, arts, writing, and life. I love music because of him, I love concert because of him, I love poems because of him, I be and still wanna be a better person and more close to God because of him. He has encouraged me dare to dream and catch them with passion and hard work and don't forget with LOVE. Like I said before JK.Rowling encourage me to write and yes she does it for the first step, and the rest Michael does it I mean he makes me to keep my dream and makes it strong and he makes me sure about what is my purpose life for. He teaches me to be brave and dare and nothing possible as long you believe in :). Thank you Mike for everything :) LOVE

3. Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

One of my wishes list and one of my childhood dream was be a detective, and it was because Sir Doyle :). He teaches me about logic and see other side in every case we have meet and every problems have their own conclusion. very use full for our life :)) he always be my favorite detective writer :D

4. Helena Bonham Carter

She's my favorite actress! She plays in many movie as an eccentric character with uniquely.I think she's brilliant! because not easy to play as eccentric character like that. First I don't really mention and like Bellatrix Lestrange in Harry Potter series, but when I watched her as Bellatrix I said WOW!she's cool! she acts like a psycho and love to kill *gosh* same like in Sweeney Todd movie :D Excellent.
What I learn about her is be eccentric and different is not a big deal and they're a gift and we should explore and use them in positive way and it will be shine! :D She's awesome!!!!

5. Julia and Jamie Oliver

Two great chef! :) they inspire me to explore and make experiment about food :) and make me always try new stuff with new recipes that i never made before :D and of course not just delicious but healthy :D

They are some of people who's I admire :)because of them I can be who I am today:) and I really proud of them. LOVE!

Crazy Week

Finally I got the new week, the last week of this month, time's like marathon and I'm still here even actually I have some improvement about my career life, just need one a good answer from that magazine but I send my wish to God's hand, I just do my best and the rest is God's work :) anyway last week was like crazy a lot of things I had to do, accordingly my job tests and meet my friends *I really love it* went to an other city, refreshing and got new adventure. But I don't have time to write my YA and honestly it makes me feel so guilty and stress. I should arrange my time better, so I think I should make some plans for this new week because I have some important occasions,one of my good friend will go to China and my cousin's getting married.Honestly I will miss her *read this phiez* lmao! because we spent many times to hang out and went to cinema *we love movies* and for sure one of woman's bad habit "gossips" . I will miss that moments :)
I know live must go on, but sometimes I feel like...when we're getting older we'll get new things and experiences but at the same time we lost many things. I hope I will get the great week, starting tomorrow!
New days but I already have my new schedule for tomorrow

Saturday, February 20, 2010


Judge me!
Hate me!
Kill me!
You always prejudge
You don't know me
But you have made a figure
Who are you?!
Dare say bad things about me

You even don't know me
Your words full of sins and curses
Your heart is black like your mind
You say love and smile
But they are just mask and fake
You can make illusions to others
But not to me
You trick people's heart
To against me
But I prepare a sword of truth

Your words full of sins and curses
Your heart is black like your mind
Remember enemies! you have been warned
The truth always win
Maybe not on earth
But yes it is in Heaven

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Wish Me Luck!

It's such a long time I become a jobless not really jobless actually because I just can't stand and don't do anything so I make my self busy, like join a community and made some events with them :D and of course writing! So around 2 weeks ago I applied a job as editorial staff in local magazine for food column, so actually I don't expect too much about that because I don't have any experience before I just graduated and even I had a job training. So one week after I sent my application I got an email from them, they said they put me on their recruitment program and the first step I had to fill their form, questions and a test, I filled all they asked to me including they asked me to give them my writing sample and sample of food styling, oh my God I really confuse and didn't know what to do, my sample writing? I just thought if it's for food column so I should be write about food or restaurant at least, and the problem is I just have poems and novels which is never been finished, but I tried to keep calm and think what should I do, so I started to write about one of my favorite Japanese restaurant, I just do my best :) and I still confused it will be enough for them? so I called my friends and they asked me
"do you have some writing has been published?"
I said " yeah, soon on March but they are poems and one short story inspired by Michael Jackson and they are for Michael Jackson book."
and they said " put in together with your restaurant article"
laugh " are u seriously?"
They said " yes! just put in, they want to see your writing so put in."
I don't know why I did what they said to me even I really feel so weird but I thought "whatever will be will be" hahahahahaa and finally I sent it back, so I just wait and wait after 1 week without any notification I just feel like oh ok maybe they don't like or maybe my writing and my qualification don't match with their company. But a few days ago they called me and asked me to come and do a job interview and job test....I Just can't believe it!! but I know I should not be happy now, but at least I feel so thanks to God because I got the call :)))
I will do it on next Monday, hope everything will be ok and going well. If they hire me, one of my dream become true but if not nothing to lose :)) so Wish Me Luck all!!! :)) LOVE!

Friday, February 5, 2010

You and Me

You and me as one
I have you like my little heart
Hear your voice in every melody in the world

Me and you are many stories
We are the music, dance and stories
About hope, dream and idealism

When I remember you, my folks
Flowers and grass will whisper me
You are here with me
With timeless tick..tock..tick..tock..

Thursday, February 4, 2010

A Light !

I am just the little candle
Give a light to handle
The world become rabble
Because they can’t lovable

Tell me the truth
I follow my path
I am the past
I am the future
Dream can be true
Even world be cruel

Just because you believe!

Michael Jackson is My Biggest Inspiration

I don't know how to write about him and my feeling about him because words never been enough. I have to look back my childhood until today, Everyone know he's the greatest artist in the world, he made so many changes in this life, not only in entertainment world like music, dance, and music video but he has changed many people's life including me.

I know about him from my parents it was around 1989, the first his video I watched is Beat it or Thriller, I forget which one or maybe both :). Since that day I admire him, I think he's really cool, great dancer and singer I ever known. My dad bought me a video which is called "Moonwalker" this video was the beta version and until now I still keep it. My childhood was filled by his music, dance and music video. I love to dance and sing, maybe realize or not he has influenced me. My parents are his fans too even my uncle :) and when I was in elementary school one of our TV local always show his concerts and I never missed it, even they played at 10 pm I made a promise to my parents I still can wake up in the morning, I started to know he loves children and had Neverland, I always dream and hope someday I can meet him and watch his concert, I promise to myself. But until he's gone I don't have any changes to meet him, and I really sad and mad, why I don't have enough money to buy his concert's ticket, why I don't have money to buy plane's ticket and everything I need to be there, and why he never come to my country.

I never passed his music, music video but I passed his cruel gossips not because I don't know but it's too cruel and heartless, I listened and read the news but one think I believe they are not true, I feel so sad and think like they talked about rubbish, they don't know who he is, they always make like he was strange and weird, but we are strange and weird with our ways. It's just because he's Michael Jackson, but please he's just a human being, has heart and can feel pains.

He has made so many charities, donates in everywhere, still love children with unconditionally love even people always make prejudice about him, he always give and give because he has said it makes him happy. He was care and sensitive man, and he's the chosen one, he's the visionary. Think and do more than anyone else, but what others did to him, judge him, make a joke about him. I think they and us have to take a look with our self what we have done? better than him? you can answer by your self.

What can I say...he's the package of completeness he can sing, dance, writing songs, poems, story, drawing, acting, directing, etc, and he loves this world, he loves earth, trees, animals, children, and he loves books :)he always see the positive things from others.

I see the perfect of imperfection, He really inspired me about this life and dreams. No one like him anymore, He's not God, Not saint, Not angel with white wings which is we can see by our eyes. But he's an angel in our hearts, in my hearts which is can be feel and see by our heart.

He teaches me a lot of things about this life, arts, hard work devotion and dedication. Because of him I dare to dream to be a writer and start to write poems, etc. Thank you so much Michael for everything and thanks to be you. :)
I make a new promise, one day I will go to his place in heaven and his prints on earth. I love you Michael from bottom of my heart, your body has gone but your soul never gone, but always be here in my heart. L.O.V.E!

my pray and love with him, his children and family.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Childhood or Teen's Wishes

I just saw my friend's blog p.h.i.e.z and I read her new post, it reminds me something about Dream jobs and Wishes, thanks to her :)

When I was senior high school, me and some of my best friends made "Wishes Lists" we have more than 100 wishes, mine is 140 wishes! we wrote them in the long white paper and draw it. I remember some of them, like I hope someday I will have a notebook, around the world, have my own library, school in Europe, be writer who can write and travel at the same time, be an Hollywood artist (LOL), can meet Daniel Radcliffe, Jk.Rowling, MJ, have a private island, magic wand,help people and make a better world, etc. At that time we laugh and think, if they can be real someday, it will be very great! We never thought or expect too much about our "Wishes Lists" and for me it was just like a game, but weird I still keep it below my old diary :)

So exactly today it had been 7 years ago, and when I opened it again, I found 22 wishes became real!!! wow! feel like a magic. But some of them still be my mission :) anyway I don't ask you to make the same thing like me but just keep believe it, but yes they need process and times.

Some of them make me feel so amazing because until know I still feel I can make it and they always stay in my heart.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Dare To Dream it's FREE!

Actually I have written this my little thought 3 years ago and I published it on my other blog but of course not in English. But now I'm trying to make a little bit revision with this my little article but still have the same meaning. I usually write motivation things to motivate my self and of course with my experiences :)

How many of us always dream about be something better, get something great, be someone special, get a better job or career of even you dream about around the world, tell your dream to your family, friends and maybe your boy/girlfriend and then they say " Oh seriously, for get about's just a dream,too impossible to get in the reality life, please be realistic." BUT my question, is it wrong? the answer of course not. If people not dream about something impossible things you may not enjoy the electricity, airplane, even internet! This world made by dreams, from the people who dares to dreams.

For me people who lives without dreams so pathetic like a zombie, pass this live and their ways just because I MUST! and what else! and people start to forget their deepest dream inside just because this life demand us to be "Normal" but have you known if maybe one of your dreams is your gift,your present and it can be come true.

One day one of my friends sent me a birthday card and she wrote "Don't stop to dream because from dreams everything can be."
I just want to warning all of you, dream is very good for your soul and for your FUTURE. As long you hold your dreams, take the action, never give up, always try and try and believe you can do it!! and you will get it :)

From my entire life observations and see all the greatest man in this world like inventor, entrepreneur, success people, etc. I asked my self, how they can do that things?? people said they are crazy before, it was non sense! and I asked my self again it was because they are smart? BUT finally I got the simple answer and if you want to know why... they start it with their DREAMS, from dreams who thinks it can't be, it's impossible, but they made it happened and proof it.

Dreams can be an idea which is change your life and your world forever. God give us gifts and give the greatest processor in this world!! and no one can change it. It is our super brain :) use it wisely with your heart, patient, hard work, pray and BELIEVE! So let's dreams! because It's FREE!

note: I always try to make my dreams come true and you know what I have gotten some of them be real ones :)

My Quote: "Sometimes we have to learn like children because they know how to dream and believe in - Felice."

"In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe" - Michael Jackson

The Future Belong To Those Who Believe In The Beauty Of Their Dreams - Eleanor Roosevelt