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Showing posts with label My Thought. Show all posts

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Belajar Tanpa Batas

Back ke bahasa Indonesia lagi. Sedang malas mikir soalnya pakai bahasa Inggris hahahaha!
Memang ya benar kata pepatah buah jatuh tidak jauh dari pohonnya, lahir dari keluarga kuliner, seniman dan guru sedikit banyak pasti kena jatahnya dan untuk itu aku bersyukur..... Untunglah! aku lahir dalam keluarga seperti ini meskipun nggak kaya dan kadang2 mesti putar otak nyari uang *uda kayak mak2 aja nih* tapi bersyukur diberikan banyak kemampuan dan talenta (dan harus diasah!).

Sejak dari bocah emang uda suka banget yang namanya makanan, klo kata nyokap sih "pinter makan" makanya sampai sekarang pun susah diet *sigh* tetapi gak cuma suka makan aja dari dulu aku suka masak tapi gak suka buat kue. Soalnya bikin kue itu lebih sulit harus sabar dan teliti, sedangkan kalau masak feeling lebih bisa jalan.... mama ku seneng banget buat kue daripada makanan, tetapi entah kualat atau ketepa sekarang aku cinta banget lho sama baking :). Pertama kali masak itu smp kelas 1 masakan pertama bikin tumis kangkung wuihh pede banget deh pas nyium aroma harum si bawang putih yang bergolak dalam minyak panas hahahah hasilnya enak dan makan sama2 dengan seorang teman..... sejak itu kangkung tumis adalah andalanku hingga saat smu pernah ada acara masak2 masal gitu deh dalam kelompok2 dengan pedenya bikin tumis kangkung dan sudah berharap akan dapat hasil yang bagus. Tapi ternyata takdir berkata lain antara masak sedikit sama banyak itu beda dan alhasil hasilnya layu banget deh tuh kangkung >.< oh no!

Tapi gak pernah kapok buat masak hahahah sampai sekarang seneng deh klo masak2in buat keluarga dan teman2 mulai dari masakan chinese, jepang, korea hingga yang kerenan dikit deh Prancis gitu.... tapi anehnya kok kurang pinter ya masak indonesia kecuali rujak dan pempek hahahahhaha *gimana nih!*

Soal dunia baking punya kisah lebih unik lagi pertama kali baking itu waktu jaman smu dan hasilnya luar biasa pingin nangis!Karna rasa penasaran "kok gue gak bisa buat kue sih?!" jadilah mencoba buat kue sponge cake *standart banget...* saat nyokap lagi tidur, dengan mengharapkan hasil nya akan bagus si nyokap surprise. Nah jadilah sebuah kesalahan dalam membaca resep disitu dikatakan telur 12 buah TAPI kuningnya 6 dan sisanya seluruh telur (klo gak salah ya... uda lupa resep yg dibaca waktu itu) cuma akhirnya aku malah mikir telor 12 jadilah telor yang hampir satu kilo itu dipake semua dan dengan pedenya buat itu kue pas lagi di oven bau telur yang sangat kuat menguar hingga ke kamar nyokap dan si nyokap bangun dan benar2 surprise karna pakai telor sebanyak itu. Hasilnya aku namakan Egg Cake hahahah si kue telor bencana itu.... sejak itu takut baking.... tapi ketika kuliah ambil hotel dan ada pelajaran baking, cukup enjoy juga meski belom cinta2 amat seperti sekarang.

Tiramisu yang aku buat satu minggu yang lalu, habis dalam waktu dua hari padahal bikin satu loyang :) *senangnya*
Akhirnya sekarang dengan sedikit penyesalan kenapa gak dari dulu gitu kan pinter di baking hahahaha sekarang pingin sekali mengasah diri di bidang pastry dan pinginnya sih bisa pergi sekolah lagi di Jepang. Kenapa Jepang? meski sebenarnya paling oke itu ke Prancis tetapi Jepang memiliki keunggulan di "Improvisasi dan development" yang baik sekali. Jadi karna sudah bisa pingin lebih mengasah diri :) cuma UUD (ujung2nya duit) belum punya uang untuk bisa sekolah pastry di sana dan harganya mahal sekali dibutuhkan sekitar 200 juta -an untuk 1 tahun (itu sekolahnya aja) tapi meski begitu sekarang ini tetap semangat cari uang untuk bisa sekolah lagi.... meski nanti usia tidak lagi muda tapi belajar itu tak kenal usia, gender maupun status... jadi GAMBARE!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Dare to Be Different

I don't even know...if I have sense of art or not, because when I enrolled for design major in a university they rejected me :). Maybe I was not good enough..... but I just can't lie to myself if I love design and arts. For me writing is a part of art, I love to make and create something. One thing made me happy when someday my boss said to me " you're eccentric!" hahahahah well, maybe not all of you like to be called like that, but for me it's really cool because people see and feel me with extraordinary thoughts!! lol *when you read this..maybe you'll say "oh yeah..you're so freak!"* But like what Kurt Cobain said " I'd rather for who I am than loved for who I am not."

I realized why grown ups mostly forget what they dreams and passed their life with regrets, when you're working for something not really you.... actually you have been training to accept the ordinary life. yeah..the reason is always same in many centuries, money. But why we can't give our self a chance to be different.... ;P I'm still trying and  I always remind myself to not be like "nous= them!" hihihihi
I hope I can be more creative and not easy to give up...life is really hard but still have a beautiful rainbow. I really need to be strong and tough but still have an honest heart :)) and more than anything still humble XD

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I've been Tagged.. Get to know Each Other..

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  • Paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your title as "Getting to Know Each Other!"
  • Tagged as many people as you like :)
  • Contact the bloggers to let them know they've been tagged

1. What time did you get up this morning?
- 5:00 AM

2. How do you like your steak?
- Medium Rare..

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
- Kick Ass

4. What is your favorite TV show?
- GLEE

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
-Europe..England or Ireland maybe XD

6. What did you have for breakfast?
- Today was noodle 

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
- Japanese, Mexican, Italy and Indonesian 

8. What foods do you dislike?
- hmmm almost nothing as long they are not bitter lol

9. Favorite place to eat?
- Asia *if I have money* lol

10. Favorite dressing?
- Balsamic or my own dressing -----> Honey Dijon 

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? 

-Don't have a car for a moment

12. What are your favorite clothes?
- Jeans, Shirt, and Jacket plus Hat *actually*


13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? . . .

- I have some: Japan, Europe, New York and LA plus Orlando *special for universal studio* wkwkwkwkw

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? 

- half empty

15. Where would you want to retire? 

- Hill with my family and my children 

16. Favorite time of day? 

- around 9 PM---> sit on my bed, watch dvd 

17. Where were you born? 

- Jakarta

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? 
- Soccer

19. Who do you think will not tag you back? 

-Dunno XD


20. Person you expect to tag you back first? 
- ....

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? 

- .....

22. Bird watcher? 

- nope


23. Are you a morning person or a night person? 
-absolutely Night person...I always on bad mood in the morning

24. Do you have any pets? 

-nope but I want have a dog like Hachiko lol

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? 
-yup! I will watch Broadway *Jakarta version* hehehehe


26. What did you want to be when you were little? 
-  Artist, Dancer and Writer


27. What is your best childhood memory? 
-I had a secret admire lol


28. Are you a cat or dog person? 
- dog

29. Are you married? 

- not yet


30. Always wear your seat belt? 
- yes, if I sit in the front because I scare police will catch me lol


31. Been in a car accident? 
- Hopefully NEVER

32. Any pet peeves? 

-.......

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? 

-Mushroom, paprika and onion

34. Favorite Flower? 

- Rose


35. Favorite ice cream? 
- Vanilla, rum and raisin and Matcha

36. Favorite fast food restaurant? 

- All hahahahaha * hope Jamie Oliver won't see my blog*


37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? 
-.......

38. From whom did you get your last email? 

- from office wkwkwkwkw

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? 
-don't have

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? 

-I guess so....

41. Like your job? 

- I LOVE my job :D



42. Broccoli? 
- No problemo

43. What was your favorite vacation? 

-Sydney

44. Last person you went out to dinner with? 

- hmmm..no one

45. What are you listening to right now? 
- nothing



46. What is your favorite color? 
- Black, brown



47. How many tattoos do you have? 
-0

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? 
-3 maybe

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
- 20.49



50. Coffee drinker? 
-quite :)


I'm tagginggg...
Angie
Cliona
Shannon




I've got from phiez thank you dear :D

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The Dream Job Road

It's such really long time I didn't write my blog and honestly I feel so guilty...but so many things happened in a few months, I had write about I applied a vacancy to fill food editorial position in my local magazine before. Actually I felt so hopeless about that because they had a long process and recruitment but I just did my best and the rest is in God's hand. I applied this job since last year, and I followed their process since January with around 6 tests, I know work in magazine is quite difficult especially if I was not from journalism major, but I really love writing and work in magazine is one of my dreams job. For me it's such a cool job :), the tests were not something new for me actually because I did it as my hobby..you know..like translated articles (I have to thanks my lecture because after I graduate he asked me to help him, translate some chapters from his book *Marketing Books* for his PhD program), made a menu, interviewed, wrote articles,food styling, interviewed again,etc. But I was nervous but tried to be calm as I can XD...I just thought if this job for me and suitable for me I will get it, but if not let it go. So after the psychology test I had to wait almost 2 months and I thought "all right they didn't call me so maybe I didn't get this job". So finally they called me and asked me to interview..but after that I still have to wait a couple days and they called me again and I GOT THIS JOB!!!! oh my God...I really can't believe it!! I will work in one of famous local magazine!

I love to write and I love food and eat lol, I love cook at home, make some new recipes and styling them...I think it's part of arts :) I really enjoy doing them...so I guess it would be great and lovely job. Actually I don't want to say it's a job but I prefer profession because I work for my passion and desire...so I will always learn and for this time I will learn from the best one :D 

well, it's really weird because for many years I dreamed about this...sometimes I acted like I was a writer in magazine, even in fact I was just a high school student, but now it becomes a reality....yeah we must dare to dream even everybody maybe say your dreams are impossible, but you know impossible is just a word and people made it...but beyond your ability and your imagination there's nothing impossible :)I really thanks to God, my family and my friends to support me....but it's not the ending...it's just beginning. Although it's my dream job but not always be perfect and happy, they would have tons of problems and unhappy moments. But I just try to make everything in positive ways and try my best because it's my choice. it's my dream.
pray for me and wish me luck for the first day next week :)

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Favorite things= inspiration + your corner Part 1

We love and like so many things, from small to big, from usual to weird >.< but everything we love is about ourself . Favorite things are your inspiration to life, and these all things are you wanna do or achieve deep inside your heart. I don't know what all of you feel about favorite things but for me it's just like unidentified emotions...because they mixed everything, like happiness, sadness, anger, rebel, etc. But they make me move and  make my soul wake up and realize about my life and optimism about future...but at the same time I wanna shout out to the world " Hey I'm here! and I wanna do something big and special at least for myself." I will write down some of my favorite things and maybe you feel the same like I do.

1. Music
I'm not a musician, I don't understand about notes and I can't play instrument, but music talk about language and it's universal. Since I was child, I'm addicted with music. Music can change my mood and my mind so easily...and Music make my imagination fly away, and make some picture about the emotion what I feel about the music. Music also help me to write poem and find some unique words. I can be act like crazy when I listen music hahahahaha. Maybe some people will make a gap about music, like "oh I just love pop, or Jazz." "Rock is my life and the others just rubbish.", etc. But for me they are just a name...that's why every time people ask me about my favorite music, I really confuse how to answer the question >.< because I love all...I love music from the classic like Rachminoff no 2 Op 18 until Rock from The Journey or Rolling Stone or Kiss. Because they speak about this life with many emotions, and try to make people and this world hear and understand their soul and heart. I just can't imagine live without melody of heart.....

2. Books
I'm a bookworm :) yes books are my best friend . I can go to everywhere in this world and in not this world, I can go to every places, I can meet many characters and more than than I can find what's my dream. I spend a lot of my own money to buy books, I'm OK if I don't have any new clothes for Christmas or New Year as long I will get a new book. I remember when I was in elementary I just had limited money, the books and comics were so expensive even nowadays, the price of 1 book or comic, it meant my money for whole week,  so sometimes I had to keep my money for lunch to buy a book, and I was starving all day and a few days hahahahaha...because my parents mostly say NO if I wanna bought a book or comic...they didn't have enough money to buy their children books and my Dad...he doesn't like to read books, he just loves read newspaper, but my mom sometimes secretly bought me some books  :)
because it was difficult for me to buy books and other things and I had to work hard to get what I want, that's make me become someone who respect and take care too much my things and books. I can cry if my books broken, ripped,etc. I will feel broken heart hahahahahaha that's why I hate if see people throw their books and last week I saw a woman step on books!!! OMG!! I really wanna kick her! and scream at her " Please be respect with the books! they're crying idiot!." and my favorite book all the time is Harry Potter :) I have so many memories about Harry Potter in my life.

3. Movies
all my entire family is movie maniac XD we really love watch movie...and honestly it gives me many inspiration   about life and writing. I love musical movie, fantasy, true story, comedy, drama, history, action and even horror but I really hate the thriller with full of blood *yukzz* I can cry and can't stop laughing because of movies...I always see and learn about how the movie has made...and when I was in high school, I asked my parents to learn about cinematography after I graduated and the answer was NO. T___T sometimes I think my parents always say No rather than Yes....>.< and they just want their child like other child being "normal" and I said to my parents...sorry Dad and Mom you guys have a freak child hahahahahaha. My favorite movies are Harry Potter for sure because I love the books but I love others movie too like Newsies, The Secret Garden, etc. I love MOVIES!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Have Been Fooled?

Today is April fools, I just remembered this day a few minutes ago ;P. Anyone of you have been fooled, today?  I don't know, I have been or not but I just found my deviant arts profile picture has been changed, I don't know it's a part of April fools or it has been hacked  *hope is the 1st one*  I saw some of deviant's profile picture has been changed too...and when I wanted to change my profile picture, it was disabled....oh God...hope it was about hacked things! *wish the best* and a coincidence one of my follower on twitter they said, one of their forum has been hacked too *sigh* But anyway I have fooled some of my friend to change my status on facebook *hah!* be in relationship lol and now I feel so bad and I think I will gonna tell them the truth...soon. lol

Thursday, March 18, 2010

When Life and Death like A String


Today is a shocking day...one of my brother friend died, she suicide jumped from her apartment. I don't really know her but we have met before, she was quite close to my brother. She has twin sister actually, she was smart always get scholarship, she was also hardworking, she was pretty, she was very kind and always go to church, full spirit. That's why this accident very unbelievable. She didn't broken heart, she didn't have problem with her her family too, but they said she depressed. I don't know the truth why she kill herself, I really don't have any idea. I know lately so many people kill them self by jumped from the shopping center or apartment it's like a trend...horrible trend honestly! and it's not funny. Some people guess about brain wash like in Japan, I have watched some Japanese movie about brain wash but I just think that only in movie, but because so many suicide tragedies here, I start to think maybe it's right,maybe.....

I have seen some facebook user who's dead include my brother's friend, I feel so sad and scare...before they died..they still can play the social network like facebook, update their status and in a few days their friend comment in their wall said goodbye forever and RIP....how sad it is....you still can see their photo profile and smiled....but they had gone...most of them still young in 20's ages but the death had come to them. Not only because suicide but some of them had an accident like car accident, etc. But every time I see it...it's so horrible... no permission, no warning...the death just come. Life and Death just like a string, very thin and fragile. My pray for her. RIP Cher.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Books around me



Yes! I am a bookworm and I really proud of this lol :) so I will move to my new house maybe on April so a few weeks ago I try to arrange my books, and I have to accept a fact, my books separate in 4 places, my main bookshelf doesn't fix anymore. Maybe my collection not like you which is can be more than 2000 :) for novel I just have around 300 and yeah comics it's around 800 mostly--> (me and my brother collection). The exiting thing about my new house is I will have my own library yeay!!! I have been dreamed in on it for a long time... :) but the problem is I don't think we have money to but new bookshelf...actually I don't want put them on plastic shelf or boxes, I prefer wood bookshelf...so I will try to figure it out how to buy or make new bookshelf...

I love physically rounded by books, they make me feel comfortable and like in another world. Beside my bed, always has books because I can't sleep before read a book or comic. :D I think I'm so lucky because my mom introduce me books when I was a child, she always bought me children books. Thanks mom for that habit :)

Every time I go to malls I have to visit a bookstore, check any new books or just window shopping in bookstore :) the sad thing is when I find a good book and I can't buy them because I don't have money....so I have to wait until I got the money...

so I took some picture of my bookshelf and boxes lol

as you can see one of the shelf already broken XD

Monday, February 22, 2010

Crazy Week

Finally I got the new week, the last week of this month, time's like marathon and I'm still here even actually I have some improvement about my career life, just need one a good answer from that magazine but I send my wish to God's hand, I just do my best and the rest is God's work :) anyway last week was like crazy a lot of things I had to do, accordingly my job tests and meet my friends *I really love it* went to an other city, refreshing and got new adventure. But I don't have time to write my YA and honestly it makes me feel so guilty and stress. I should arrange my time better, so I think I should make some plans for this new week because I have some important occasions,one of my good friend will go to China and my cousin's getting married.Honestly I will miss her *read this phiez* lmao! because we spent many times to hang out and went to cinema *we love movies* and for sure one of woman's bad habit "gossips" . I will miss that moments :)
I know live must go on, but sometimes I feel like...when we're getting older we'll get new things and experiences but at the same time we lost many things. I hope I will get the great week, starting tomorrow!
New days but I already have my new schedule for tomorrow

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Wish Me Luck!


It's such a long time I become a jobless not really jobless actually because I just can't stand and don't do anything so I make my self busy, like join a community and made some events with them :D and of course writing! So around 2 weeks ago I applied a job as editorial staff in local magazine for food column, so actually I don't expect too much about that because I don't have any experience before I just graduated and even I had a job training. So one week after I sent my application I got an email from them, they said they put me on their recruitment program and the first step I had to fill their form, questions and a test, I filled all they asked to me including they asked me to give them my writing sample and sample of food styling, oh my God I really confuse and didn't know what to do, my sample writing? I just thought if it's for food column so I should be write about food or restaurant at least, and the problem is I just have poems and novels which is never been finished, but I tried to keep calm and think what should I do, so I started to write about one of my favorite Japanese restaurant, I just do my best :) and I still confused it will be enough for them? so I called my friends and they asked me
"do you have some writing has been published?"
I said " yeah, soon on March but they are poems and one short story inspired by Michael Jackson and they are for Michael Jackson book."
and they said " put in together with your restaurant article"
laugh " are u seriously?"
They said " yes! just put in, they want to see your writing so put in."
I don't know why I did what they said to me even I really feel so weird but I thought "whatever will be will be" hahahahahaa and finally I sent it back, so I just wait and wait after 1 week without any notification I just feel like oh ok maybe they don't like or maybe my writing and my qualification don't match with their company. But a few days ago they called me and asked me to come and do a job interview and job test....I Just can't believe it!! but I know I should not be happy now, but at least I feel so thanks to God because I got the call :)))
I will do it on next Monday, hope everything will be ok and going well. If they hire me, one of my dream become true but if not nothing to lose :)) so Wish Me Luck all!!! :)) LOVE!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Childhood or Teen's Wishes


I just saw my friend's blog p.h.i.e.z and I read her new post, it reminds me something about Dream jobs and Wishes, thanks to her :)

When I was senior high school, me and some of my best friends made "Wishes Lists" we have more than 100 wishes, mine is 140 wishes! we wrote them in the long white paper and draw it. I remember some of them, like I hope someday I will have a notebook, around the world, have my own library, school in Europe, be writer who can write and travel at the same time, be an Hollywood artist (LOL), can meet Daniel Radcliffe, Jk.Rowling, MJ, have a private island, magic wand,help people and make a better world, etc. At that time we laugh and think, if they can be real someday, it will be very great! We never thought or expect too much about our "Wishes Lists" and for me it was just like a game, but weird I still keep it below my old diary :)

So exactly today it had been 7 years ago, and when I opened it again, I found 22 wishes became real!!! wow! feel like a magic. But some of them still be my mission :) anyway I don't ask you to make the same thing like me but just keep believe it, but yes they need process and times.

Some of them make me feel so amazing because until know I still feel I can make it and they always stay in my heart.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Writer wanna Be


I love writing since I was a child but for me it's just like my hobby, I remember the first time I made a short story because I didn't have money to give my bestie present. So I thought what should I do...then I tried to make a short story and now I forgot the title XD. But the theme was about teenagers life who has a magic power and a bit thriller, I think that because I read too much fear street hahahahahaha. So from that day I wrote a lot short story but the background and theme had changed be Chinese culture lol *Oh my God...* Now I wonder why I wrote about that.
So after the Chinese theme addicted had passed I wrote so many story which is never been finished, I call these file "Idea Bank" because they just have 5 pages until 12 pages I just can't finished them...
Lately I try to write poems and poetry, actually in many years ago I thought I wouldn't do that but the fact now I enjoy it :) and I show to some of my friends and they love my poems :D honestly it makes me so happy....and one day I showed my unfinished story to one of my friend and she said " you should write them till finish, I want to know the next". I'm not confidence to finish them but a month ago I decided to try write them till finish :) I know it will be hard and difficult but my friends always support me and give comments, advices for my writing. So now I have been in chapter 3 :) hope everything will be going well and someday and maybe a publisher like my story :)I would like to be a writer :) L.O.V.E

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Supper with Coco Chanel




Diet is my big problem and all women problem and maybe men too ;p, especially i have gastric so it's difficult for me to not eat in the midnight ;P because my sleep time very bad one :) anyway two days ago I made salad for my supper at least I was trying to eat vegetable. I had mixed lettuce, tomatoes, mushroom and for the dressing of course lovely balsamic, lemon, mayonnaise mixed with mustard and black pepper! voila! ..yummy!! and my supper really super with Coco Chanel movie..yeah I watched it, french one "Coco avant Chanel" but for me I prefer the English version because the showed more about fashion and how she worked hard for it. I love some of her clothes very modern and classic! and her ideas so brilliant! but more than that the message for me as long you know what your dream and give effort for them you will get them! I know she never been married but she had the true love from boy :)) but unlucky for her and him destiny can be so cruel...so... c'est tres bien!!! alors....nice supper avec Coco!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Me Jellyfish


I don't want post something depression or gloomy actually but I have to share it maybe someone has the same experience or maybe an advice.... it's almost 6 months i become a jobless, not really one actually I can't stay at home and keep silent... I have to move so..I join with extraordinary community which is give me so much chances and I really thank for that, we have some events and they are quite make me stress for fact, but I enjoy it. The problem is they are not a stable job...I need something seriously job it doesn't mean what i had done before not serious one. I am still looking who I am and what my purpose is.... yeah maybe you can tell me I am just think too much, but it's so important for me because life only once and very short.. lately I feel I am the stupid Jellyfish, just swim in the ocean don't know where I will go....